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Suicidal at 19 in 1991


"I was hanging around with my straight mates from school up until about 18. That started to wear off once they got girlfriends and I wasn't really going to go through that. I did have one sort of girlfriend but that was really out of peer pressure. At the age of eighteen, nineteen with no girlfriend apart from this one girl that I saw, it was getting quite difficult. I found myself very confused, probably suicidal round 18, 19, probably planned my own death by gassing myself in a car. I just didn't see a way out. I used to read these Ceefax pages from Agony Aunts and Agony Uncles that would say ' Don't lock yourself into anything. Don't pigeonhole yourself.' I used to hope that one day I would be married with kids or something”

Contributed by: Derek, 35

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